Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Those tough times

I hate those little reminders that pop up out of no where and strike you right in the heart strings.

Graduation is getting ever closer and it's a stressful time, with classes wrapping up, graduation impending, moving soon, and starting a new job, a lot has been going through my mind.

Today I sat down to write a thank you letter to send to all those who have influenced my life over the years. Obviously I cannot send this to everyone, but many who come to mind. So I began looking up addresses and sifting through the pile of cards and letters I have collected over the past few years. This reminded me how my mother used to send cards and letters spontaneously to people just because she could. It was her way of ministering to the sick and shut ins and just letting people know she cared.

It struck me hard just to think that she will not be here in the coming weeks to see me complete college and get started in my first real job. It's gonna be hard. I will try to not take it out on my step-mother because I know she loves me deeply and cares for me just as if I were her own, but it' tough not seeing my mother here.

My prayer today is that I can make it through this transition and that I am making the right choices that my mother taught me to make.

"Whatever comes our way, whatever battle we have raging inside us, we always have a choice. It's the choices that make us who we are, and we can always choose to do what's right."